Do I dare to hope?

Here I am, Tuesday morning, and there has been no bleeding, no cramps, nothing to forewarn me of an impending miscarriage. My boobs still hurt, I've been nauseous, and very tired. I feel like I am just waiting for my world to collapse, but someone has hit the pause button. Instead, this weekend we went out for brunch on Saturday, laughed while picking out new nerdy glasses for me, cuddled, watched episode after episode of The Office, cleaned & organized our storage closet, and basically just tried to forget that this was happening to us.

My ultrasound is at 9:50 am on Wednesday, exactly 12 hours from now. I do want to know what's going on with me and baby, but at the same time, this not knowing doesn't suck either. Because I can still hope. I wonder how many times someone can be knocked down until they lose all hope.

In other news, a friend of ours just moved into our guest bedroom. She was originally a friend of my husband's back in college due to her dating one of my husband's good friends. The husband's friend and her are still dating and live in Iowa together, but wanted to come back to Wisconsin. She recently was offered a job here in Wisconsin so we offered a place for her to stay at no cost while she and her boyfriend figured out the living situation. When we initially offered this, I was thinking it would be a couple of weeks to a month. Turns out she was thinking until Christmas. We "compromised" and said the end of November.

I will say this is very unlike me. I like my space, I value my alone time, I am not the life of the party. And now I will have someone at home with me EVERY NIGHT. She is a very nice girl, but it's going to be a lot to deal with, whether I'm pregnant or not. I'm just praying her boyfriend finds a job up here asap.

So now we have three adults, one dog, and one cat all living in 1,000 square feet. Sounds like a good reality television show.

I'll post again when I know what's going on. Thank you to everyone who has given their support and prayers. It's a wonderful feeling to know you're not alone in this when it seems like you're surrounded by healthy pregnancies.